those thick thick ones that contain good news and would make me jump and feel happy. turning my worries into happiness.

it had been a very long wait. and it made me pondered and realised that life is all about waiting...

i started to think about my life, and what i have waited for, who made me waited, what i need to wait and things that changed the waits into fun and enjoyable ones...

when i come out of my mother's stomach, the journey of waiting starts.

i waited to grow up, enter kindergarten, and finally reach the first stage of education. Primary School.

At primary school, first wait for streaming in primary 4, next PSLE, then we waited for our results and for which secondary school to go to. hoping to get into good ones is everyone dream.

but it make me realized one thing " If your results is sucky, never hope for a good placement."

Next, after a few months of long wait, there i am entering the school gate of my new school. and where puberty started, and no longer innocent or naive. thinkings changed. when u are 12 years old you waited to get to 16 years old, and in the 4 years, i have no ideas, i had waited for so many things till today. waiting for the holidays to be here, waiting to get out of the school, waiting to enter JC or Polytechnic, waiting for stress to end, waiting for the bus to school and back home.

and finally at sec 4, everyday i waited for O Levels to be over, waited for the long break, and lastly, waited anxiously to see which polytechnic and course i got into.

After days and months of waiting, school started again...

New friends, and new environment, new phase of life. and after a few months of studying in a new environment with new challenges, the thought of " I cant wait for this 3 years to end" started to come into my mind.

after years and years of waiting for good grades to fall in front of me, and years of waiting for miracle to happened and years of telling myself "I cant wait to get out of the school", i decided to give myself aim and target. Work Hard, Play Hard, and spend my 3 years of school life happily and fulfilling. Get good grades and move on to the university.

In the 3 years, i see, feel and of course realised many things. Feeling Sad, when my friends disliked me, when my results ain't good, and when my classmates don't appreciate me for the hard work i put in for them as a class rep. feeling frustrated when my project mates dont cooperate. and of course, feeling happy that i have a group of good friends and buddies that are great, and lecturers that have been really nice advisors, listening ear and pillar of support.

i didnt realised that 3 years have passed and in the fastest way it can be. guessed is because of the many little things that had changed this long wait into a short one. and finally, i made myself proud with grades that i aimed to achieve. and move on to apply for university, hoping to get into the course and university i wanted.

So now again, the wait begin, and this wait seems short, but it's the longest wait, because it's the only wait i have pin much hope and worked very hard for. hoping to see the results i expect and feel happy for myself. but how long is this wait going to be, as it's making me tired and worried as the days go by.

and at the same time, i am pondering, there is still many more wait to go till the end of one's life.

Now wait to get 21years old, wait to get a degree, wait to get a job, wait to get married, wait to have a family, wait wait wait wait...more waits to go till the age of 60 or 80. I wonder how many waits have my grandparents and my parents had till their age. maybe i should start asking them. of all the waits they had waited for. which are the most memorable ones.